My son, Elijah, was born on July 26th at around 1:15 A.M. He weighed 6 lbs. 13 oz.
To simply put this: meeting him was the most amazing thing I have ever experienced. I simply didn’t know how to react. It wasn’t anything I ever expected and seeing this little person opened my eyes and my heart to a new experience and a new love. I don’t have the words to really convey my love and affection for Elijah, my son, on a blog or a piece of paper or how to even express it verbally. I’m still baffled and haven’t really let it all sink in.
This is ultimately not the situation I expected to be in with him and his mother; apart and broken. The feeling of loss and everything else all rolled into one place has me so confused and distraught. I have tried to mend fences with his mother many times and have finally come to the conclusion that her heart is no longer interested in a family with me.
When do you stop and let it all go? As a man trying to mend his family, where do you throw in the towel. After the woman you love and have given your heart to says “there is no future for us,” that obviously doesn’t leave me many options.
At this point I’m taking a break from the blog. Why? I’m afraid of what I might say. And who knows I may end up having a lot to say in the coming months. More than I expected. But for right now, I gotta chill.
The motto for my blog is “Switching gears in life” and that ultimately is where I’m at. I followed a care free path for a long time but now it’s obvious that I have no other option but to change gears and take responsibility for my little man. My little son. He is my light right now. He is what I think about when I’m down, sad and alone. He needs my strength and courage to do what’s right and provide for him as much as I possibly can.
I love you son.
What’s the Happenings?
I’m also in school and it’s going pretty well. I started off going for a software engineering degree but because of the time constraint (not wanting to be in school for the next three years), I decided to stick to a business management course. Then after getting my BA in Business Management I can go for my masters in Information Technology Management which is where I want to concentrate on eventually.
I’ve also been working on a lot of pretty cool projects with a few friends that I hope will pay off soon and provide an avenue to expand myself on a professional level. These projects may soon be released and talked about here. For now, they’re under wraps.
Anyway, I’m excited about the future and some of the things I’m looking forward to accomplishing. I’m looking forward to watching my son grow and become a little boy. Stay tuned and drop some comments or friend me on Facebook.