Get Loaded Rob

The Bad and the Ugly

A good friend of mine, someone I considered very close to me, betrayed me big time. We don't talk anymore and this was someone I saw pretty much on a daily basis. I mean, we were very close friends. I won't get into all the fucked up details but I will say, "Don't start a business with a good friend," no matter what they promise or say they'll do because if it doesn't work out, things can get ugly.

After a business and a relationship failed I fell off pretty hard and especially during the summer. It was all about getting hammered and sleeping around. I didn't care about much besides making money that I could blow at the bar. I was a low point but I got through it. There are a few things I regret but hey, you only live once. I learned some lessons and took my share of hard-knocks. I've learned to moderate myself and my actions (for the most part). I still like to get hammered just not everyday.

I don't know, I guess the message is to appreciate your surroundings and those around you. Take time to realize reality, because the people that are in your life right now, won’t always be there. Don't get caught up too much in the party and everything that's passing you by. Look at the people around you and really contemplate how they influence you. Think about how much you care about them and what life would mean if they weren't there.

I think we get caught up in all the struggles of life to realize, "it's not all that bad." We don't realize there's always someone in a worse situation and the fact is, life will go on either way. Take care of yourself and try to be responsible. Don't lose yourself. It's cool to party and hang out with friends but remember who truly cares about you.

And finally, be ready to face consequences. What you do today will have an effect on you later on in life. You may be running around with a "I don't give a fuck" attitude but some day you just might, "give a fuck." By then, it may be to late.

The Good

Ok so I have to end this on a good note. As tough as things may have seemed previously, they're looking up now. I'm back in touch with myself and who I want to be. I have my ambitions back and I'm enjoying life again. In other words, I give a fuck again.

I've met someone I've been able to get close to and I'm very into her. Fuck, I like her a lot. She's amazing and I'm happy to have her in my life although she lives five hours away from me. We've grown very close in a  very short time and I feel whatever's next will be more than I ever imagined from a companion. These are always things we don't anticipate. I wasn't expecting to meet anyone, anytime soon. Low and behold there she is and here we are. It's exciting.

Furthermmore, I've gotten close to my family again.  I've learned to forgive and let others forgive me. Part of that is accepting responsibility for your actions and living up to them. Life goes on and holding grudges only complicates life. Sometimes you have to just get over it.

Anyway, here’s to an awesome 2008. Now go out and get shit-faced, bang a few whores and have a happy New Year Celebration!

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